Month: July 2020

personal update

I feel like my mind is like these flowers. I started out whole and then the trauma seeped in like the dye… but watching these flowers take shape again… return to their simple white and yellow makes me smile. Gives me hope for my mind and my internal struggles. One day, I want to be myself again.

personal update

I began learning to cook on July 2nd of this year. I wish my mother could taste my cooking. I seem to have an innate talent for it.

For my upcoming birthday, I plan on baking a rainbow cake. My family asked to make it a family activity and I agreed. As not only is it my birthday but it is also the anniversary of my mother’s death the day after.

It will be a vanilla/white cake (we will utilize artificial food coloring to get the different color layers) with buttercream filling and strawberry frosting.

The first slice cut will be for my mother, which we will save in the fridge until the anniversary of her death. I want my father to take the first bite.

daisies

The rose has always been looked upon as a flower of great distinction. 

However, I find that though they are pure, and of circumstance, 

They are too shallow a beauty. 

—Daisies are the truly rich man’s great flower.

 

They may be white, 

And centered around just yellow. 

Their petals may be simple in their shape.

But to me they are more than that. 

This simplicity allows for depth and greatness.

-(from an epic poem I wrote from 2009-2018)

i dream lily

I dream of lilies… since the time of early childhood. Chasing you yet running from you all the same. Lily. Let me be your light. Let me be the one… forgive me for all I have done. Shadows follow me. My scars once open wounds preventing me from speaking: I love you.