pop in and out
tear the love
from me in a murmur.
These dead letters remember me kindly.
pop in and out
tear the love
from me in a murmur.
i play music
try to distract
myself
from
my fears
my hurt
it jars
my thoughts
bringing me
constantly
back
to the present
i listen
to music
almost
constantly
to the point
it is a crutch
supporting
me
as i walk
alone
down
busy streets
as i sit
alone
silently
at home
the music
fuels
my breath
keeps me going
on days
when all else
seems
to fail.
she looks
into her
crystal-ball
shade in
every vision
i roam
through
this earth
hear the fortune-tellers
moan
my fate
yet
yet
i do not
share their
melancholy
destined to love
one man alone
i can think
of far worse
than this.
and the maze
of life
seems unending
purge
the fear
away
drain it
down.
try
again
and again.
i sit
pajamas still
on
my eyes burn
from unshed
tears
i pedal
my thoughts
back and forth
try to keep
the sorrow
from overtaking
me
revive my soul
with thoughts
of you.
the dead lift up
swing by
back again
you hear their voices
in the wind
they call
the crows
to lift
spread wings
come find me
dance
swing down
drown out sorrow
sing
dance
jerk
back
fall forward
to a different point
no longer darkness
it is strange to look
forward
and see light
blinding light
not pitch black
just light
and know that you do not know
but that there is
someone there
and that
you love them
and they love you.
he makes me reason unreason out the door.
helps me breathe when laughing shrieks suffocate my lungs away.
he is my home.
they call her death
she has a civil tongue
so the day
goes down
strangles the moon
buries the
standing king
she has no civil tongue
he laughs
the stranded king
i need to learn
to whisper
not softly
not quietly
i am borne of tongues.