speak love

you burn
the things
the people
who mattered
most
to you
then

you
the boy
with the baseball
cap

and i
always tried
to look
past
the fires

to you
and your
eyes

you chase
after
me

ALWAYS

i used
to take
comfort
in that

but now

i shriek
for you

crazed
banshee
that i
still am

dream of
someone
kind
yet
uninterested

break
again
and
again

reach out

desperate
for you

and know
that if
when
you come

i will
run

fight
to be
away
from you

you said
love

you spoke
of beauty

but only
smashed
broke
through

nothing
gentle
in you

your forced
embrace

perhaps
i was
too far
gone

on you

when you
continued
on

still spoke
love
with
unyielding
destruction

i stood
by

listened

thought
i
understood

you
who
tarnished

broke
me

is it
irreparable?

the cracks
shattered
pieces
you left

to rot

can it
be fixed?

put my
self
back
together

not for
perfect
love

that was
the stuff
of dreams

i ran
for
it

into
darkness

so cold

will i
always
be
so cold?

huddling
into
myself

try for
nothingness

and when
the kind
one

spoke of
warmth

of love

i sob
like

like
what?

hysterical

ended up
showering

under
scalding
water

clothes
still

on

shivering

still cold

crumpled
in a heap
on the shower

floor

and as i
sobbed

broke

i understood

when you
spoke
love

with fire

maybe
that was
what

all the universe
thought

i
deserved

i shriek
for you

cry

sob

for you

gone so
far away

and when
i speak
love

i wonder
of him

but know

only
you.

 

 

 

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