what is warmth?

in the dead

of night

i sit

shivering

in my head

on repeat

a question

what do you

think

is

warmth?

words that

break

the already

broken

i ran out

shrieking

rage

numb

could not

even

cry

not really

like a dog

weeping

before it is

shot down

for being

lame

too old

not good enough

not enough

never?

not even

when

little

let me

just

say

it

everyone

preferred

the breaks

the sad

traumas

the scared

me

who knew

nothing

of

love

even that

is still

me

still

true

but

they

wanted

the scared

little girl

little aggie

never the

roaring

tiger

i was

even

then

even

when

i was

just born

it was

dark

nothing

but

darkness

so what

could

it matter

that story

of fire

of light

of warmth?

i was

born

unwanted

born

not

not

enough

cold

it will

be with me

always.

poison

was

what

they called

me

but

i never

wanted

it

to be

true.

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